Dilemma...

Its just simply amazing how much one can go through weeks with nothing much to say while suddenly jamming up with tons of ideas in just mere few hours...


1st of all, i'm still pretty much disturb over this matter bout my best bud and my ex-crush...
Have you have been through a situation where you have no luck with this girl you like but before you knew it, you buddy is going after her... i've been there... 3rd time now i believe...

What matter most here is my bud here is turning me for advice on how to win her heart... For a starter, she didn't gimme a very good impression since the last time i saw her but from what i can analyse here, they both just might be the perfect match... I think...
The last thing i wanna do now is to give him the wrong info bout her and ruin his future... So what i initially suggest is that i have a talk with her to see both side of the story before i make any false judgement...

The only problem now is my girlfriend... Well, you can't really blame her for not liking that idea can you... To assure my poor girlfriend and to give her i peace of mind i decide not to call her... Which now just bring me back to the problem, how am i gonna face my bud?


2nd, chinese have a saying that goes (my girlfriend's saying i'm beinging to sound like Tan Ah Teck from Under One Roof: long before you time in the southen province of china...), every home have its own set of almost illegible bible...

Every house have a different story to tell... Not all are pleasing to hear... It takes one who have a tough story of their own to be able to comprehand what another might be going through...
I... never believe that mine is the toughest of all... Just know that mine ain't as easy as what others might think... Thus i never boast bout my battle-scar and instead, always like to use this... Gift... in return to help other who may not able to cope well with their own story...

With this small little wisdom i've gain way beyond my age, i've help few friends in need... One of course in my dearest girlfriend... But not all have i succeed... Which is why i'm never very proud of this... gift of mine...
I believe that when your giving people advice bout relationship and life especially, you more or less need to have a certain degree of seriousness, cause it'll be rude to give false assumption to people who believe in you... Very much like the True fortune telling, too much or too little information may vary the decision that person will take... Be good or be bad, it'll all be the responsiblity of the person whose giving the advices...

Harsh it is... Maybe i'm being too hard on myself...
But...
i'm putting my life at stake everytime i give people my advise...



And so today's update:

Spend: 20 farecard, 7 breakfast, 14 movie, 3.90 her mint (again), 15 for a emergency NDS power supply...
Save: movie on mon is always cheaper, meal at my poly is even better =P
Wallet: 17
Coins: 0.95
Current Bank: 1020.94(?)
Saving Bank: 3000(?)
Saving (2): 1000

The greatest mystery in the world....

What women want?

As the end of my holiday comes to the end, thinking back what happen just this few days really makes me ponder bout this age old eternal question...
the term: Men are from Mars and women are from Venus, isn't there for joke...

They just simply don't make any sense at all from times to times...
For eg: Yesterday my girlfriend wake up in a bad mood with 'R.A.G.E.' writen all over her face. Totally ignoring all my comments and concerns towards her, even broke up a fight just for what you ask?

Ans: A nightmare of me cheating on her...

I spent 2hours trying to console and comfort her that its not real, it never happened and it never will, blah blah blah...
Okay, i understand enough that women are very sensitive and emotional, thus it hurts them alot (though a tad too much) just the mere thought of something unforgiving should happen and pains them more than stabbing through their hearts...

Or maybe cause it just PMS... (i know cause i keep track on her cycle okay? And guys, i suggest you do the same too if you wanna keep you sanity...)


And just now i had yet again another fight with her cause i was trying to contact my old crush-for-10years-girl (very very long story...) as my best bud is trying his luck for her and i wanna find out if she is worthy of him (yes, if SHE is worthy of HIM, he's just too nice for her... Just my humble opinion, excuse me...)...

(Wai, if your reading this, sorry man... Don't mean to keep it from you... Just thought i shouldn't mix my personal life with yours)

By the by, and so we quarrel for a good 3 hours and she throw all sort of rubbish at me, even taboo subject which she promise me not to bring up again...
(Yet in the mist of the quarrel, (we are perhaps the only couple who can quarrel through SMS), i'm still able to cast aside everything to buy her favourite limited edition mint which i came across on my way home...)


Like i've said, women just don't make sense... She can broke her promise anytime she want while we're dead meat should we even dare to think bout it...
(Not that i'm actually blaming her consider how jealous she is and her period just came this afternoon where i actually have to go find the kotex for her...... Don't ask how i got it...)


The point being, i don't dare to say i AM that perfect or what-so-ever (but girls, frankly speaking, where can you find a guy who would keep track on your cycle and even go all out to get you a kotex when you don't have one...), but i am trying... Perhap i'm really a hypocrite here, just doing what ''i think i'm suppose to do'' to make her happy...

But...
I really wanna make her happy...


So people, feel free to drop your comment... Girls are most welcome...
Thanks again...


And so today's update:

Spend: 10 farecard, 13 lunch, 6 snacks, 7.80 her mint, 30 for yet another 2nd-hand game...
Save: 50 from my mom belated birthday gift...
Wallet: 50
Coins: 2.25
Current Bank: 1080.94
Saving Bank: 3000
Saving (2): 1000

Refuel...

After 3 months of weekends, the NDP is finally over...
In which all the time we suffered, time away from love ones and friends earns us a good 4 days (5 if you include sunday) off...

I'll say: WE DESERVED IT!!!

Its finally on such days where we can finally take a good long rest we need so desperately... And just in the right time where our pay for the month finally arrived too...

Most people i know already gone for vacation, celebration, etc...

Me?
With this flu which i just caught, i'll be just staying back and rest for the while, thank you...
(I never have much luck with holidays, always come down with all sort of illness...)


And so today's update:

Spend: 550 for household allowance, 184.15 for girlfriend's bill (sigh...), 11.75 lunch, 20 farecard...
Save: Soon enough...
Wallet: 50
Coins: 1.55
Current Bank: 1106.94
Saving Bank: 3000
Saving (2): 1000

Homeless birthday...

Every year i always make a prediction that my birthday would suck like hell...
This year i'll let you people decide whether if it really does...

i spent 10 buck just to rush back home the day before my birthday just hope i can get some rest and maybe time of my own... i wasn't expecting any party, presents, surprise or what-so-ever, all i want is to lay down on my soft warm bed and play my game...

When i reach home, everything look normal, no lights, nobody, no nothing...

...Till i open the door of my room to find it pile up with my mom's TRASH...

The room is so filled with rubbish that there isn't even any walking space at all... Even my bed is full of her junk... i gave her a call and all she can say is: oh your back, bout the stuff in your room, you just slowly move it to my workshop (AKA storeroom) and i'll buy you dinner when i get home k?

At this time, i've 2 option in mind: 1st, Move all her stuff to her place like what she told me to do or i could: 2nd, TRASH THE WHOLE PLACE UP!!!

I mean, WTF!? Can't i even have a peaceful time on my birthday!? i offer her not to make any party or buy me any present to save her money and trouble, only requesting her to pay for my dental bill... And THIS is what i get for my 21st birthday!?

The moment i find myself trying to grab something to throw, i pick up my phone, call my mother: forget bout dinner, i'm going back camp (she can still innocently say: oh they call you up is it?) and went back camp... While buying myself a birthday present on the way...

Reach camp, fixed a little pre-birthday dinner (cupnoodle), sleep...

Next day? NDP rehearsal... Nuff said...
Didn't eat much that day, been having stomach ache for the last whole week... Didn't have the appetite to eat much...

Didn't go home that night... i knew if i went home i'll surely have a big fight with my parent... Why don't i meet my girlfriend? She came down with a flu... Though she did offer for me to stay at her place, i reject her offer as... well... what am i gonna say to her mom?
In the end, stay back in camp again, with only 2 pieces of cookie for dinner...

Went home the next morning, couldn't bring myself to speak to my parent, just a simple wave and nod of my head to answer her question (and she still ask: in what way did i offended you?)...

This conclude my 21st birthday...

i know perhaps that it is i who do upon myself...
But if you were in my shoe, what would you do?
Feel free to drop a comment...



And so today's update:

Spend: lost track, only remember 10 on comic, 59 for 'birthday present', 23.30 on total cab fare, 65 to repair my portable HD, 36.03 on belated 'birthday meal', 1.40 on drink...
Save: 35 for duty...
Wallet:10
Coins: 1.90
Current Bank: 182.06
Saving Bank: 3000
Saving (2): 1000