Lost...

Its been bout 2 years into my relstionship with my girlfriend now...
Though its rather short compare to some of what i know, i've come some conculsion...

I read this mail a few years ago something bout: love is not bout loving someone perfect but to love someone imperfect perfectly...

I've come to realise the 2nd meaning behind this phrase and that is there is no perfect person in this world... No matter how hard you try to be one...
Well here's the contradicting part... It is possible to be perfect but only to so limited number of people around you... usually not more than... 5 max?

Nevermind that... Lost track of what i wanna say...

While my quest to be a perfect boyfriend for my girlfriend, i found out that while people complain what women want is upmost difficult to achieve, men's ain't not so great neither...
Oh sure... There're lots of jokes going on that all men want is girl(s) to appear naked with (insert you favourite hobby, drink, food, etc...) but the truth is, men are usually much more demanding than they think...

Here's a brief list what men would want in their women:
Pretty, figure, slim, understanding, able to cook, don't nag, don't spend their money, not to shop all the time, not to drag them to shop with them, not to ask them those "Sure die" question, not to stop them from their favourite activities (soccer, basketball, gaming, etc...), don't cry so much...

Blah blah blah... and the list goes on...
Men are greedy, i know...

So the thing is that, while its literally impossible for a men to be perfect, it ain't not so easy to find a perfect girl too... Which i believe most men have already found out by the time they even read this...

Lost track on what i'm saying again...

Ever since i've been with my girlfriend, i've been critisize by lots of people saying how stupid i am for doing all so much unnessasary things for my girlfriend... So much that sometimes my girlfriend don't get it as well and in the end, still end up quarreling with me... I can't even start listing them but that's not the point...

The point of it all is that I can never be perfect no matter how hard i try and while all this while i've been trying so hard to adept to my girlfriend's life, i should give her a chance to adept into my life too... All to let her know both Pro's & Con's bout me instead of hide my ugly side from her...

...?
Wait a minute, isn't that the whole point to start with?


Forget it...
I've totally lost track on what i'm trying to say...


And so today's update:


Spend: 50 on game, 20+ on expences with girlfriend, 5 on food, 19 for movie, 82.67 for girlfriend's bill...
Save: 5 buck on the game...
Wallet: ???
Coins: ???
Current Bank: 321.48
Saving Bank: 5000
Saving (2): 1007

Narcolepsy...

For those who have know me well enough, they could easily answer this simple question bout me:

What time do i usually goes to bed?
A: Before 10pm
B: Before 12midnight
C: Before 4am
D: Before sunrise
E: Who needs a bed?


I've been having this rather interesting sleeping habit ever since primary 3...
To be able to sleep just bout anywhere, anytime, anyhow... Yes... Anyhow...

Here's a brief list of different ways i can actually fall asleep:
Studying, working, in class, in tuitorial, in experiment, waiting, sitting, standing, talking, playing game, with my eyes open, hands still scribling on paper, still active listening to others while still able to answer questions...

and the list goes on...


Now, while clearly after looking at the list even a kid would know by now that this is not normal...
But yet, i'm able to go about all this while without anyone even noticing my problem... For over 10years...
Reason simple enough, cause nobody care, nobody bother, nobody believe me...

I mean seriously, if you caught someone sleeping in class, at work, etc, the first thing that usually came to mind is that this fellow is: lazy, tired, can't be bothered...

Which is basically what i've been condemned for the past few years...


Well, i suppose it could jolly well be ignored for the rest of my life if nobody do anything...
But somebody did... and thus my chief insisted that i consult the MO bout my problem...

Narcolepsy...
A nerulogical condition most characterized by Excessive Daytime Sleepiness, episodes of sleep and disorder of rapid eye movement sleep. It is a type of dyssomnia...


Sigh...
Happy now?


And so today's update:


Spend: 100 on games, 60 on farecard, 20+ on expences with girlfriend, 10 on food, 550 for household allowance, 500 savings...
Save: guess quite alot since it could cost quite alot if i had my condition examined by specialist...
Wallet: 55
Coins: ???
Current Bank: 550++
Saving Bank: 5000
Saving (2): 1007

雨の樹

1 month and a week...
2 weeks since update...

Went to visit the 'raining tree' with my girlfriend...
The tree which named 'Miracle'...

While from far it look like a normal tree, upon closer inspection its bark is clearly artificial...
(Frankly speaking it not too hard to identify since its the only tree which is still considerably brushy compare to other scrawny trees...)


While its not all magical or what-so-ever...
It manage to calm me down from the fustration of 2 continuous week of shit dumped on me...
The 'rain' is some what cooling is this hazy and humid surrounding...

'Refreshed'...
The best word to describe the feeling...


'Miracle'...
A great name for a great tree...



And so today's update:


Spend: ...
Save: ...
Wallet: ???
Coins: ???
Current Bank: 21++
Saving Bank: 4500
Saving (2): 957